Changes

I have to work nights now. Choir is out of the picture. Having a normal life is also out of the picture. Seeing my family and friends on a regular basis is out of the picture. How am I going to diet and lose weight working nights? Yes, I understand, working OT and getting 12% is great, especially around the holidays, I understand the logic of everything. I understand I should be grateful I still have a job, and to some degree I am. On the flip side, if I got let go, I'd at least be able to collect unemployment while looking for something else. I would've had to move into an apartment, but still. At least I'd be able to live normally. Maybe I'm just tired and emotional because the man I thought I was 'seeing' was having a monogamous relationship with someone else and I was just someone on the side. That set me up to be a weepy mess tonight, which I understand. I had a feeling he was seeing someone else anyway, but to have him tell me ON FACEBOOK no less really messed with my head. Sometimes I hate my generation. How hard is it to call me? I am just angry, sad, confused, overwhelmed, and tired. I'm tired of my life. I need a break.