My typical blog is http://rebeccamh.wordpress.com/ but I don't do much photo stuff there. So I linked my friends to here to come look at what I've done recently. Enjoy. I dunno who will even come. But, its here anyway. <3
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Photos
My typical blog is http://rebeccamh.wordpress.com/ but I don't do much photo stuff there. So I linked my friends to here to come look at what I've done recently. Enjoy. I dunno who will even come. But, its here anyway. <3
Monday, May 3, 2010
Expectations
First night back in the Command Center and the truth comes out. People have been complaining for weeks about me working from home. I have come to realize more and more that this place I call a job is more like high school than I could ever have dreamed. I'd love to offer anyone the trade-off...you take my headaches and work from home, and I'll be headache free and work from the office. Done and done. I don't appreciate being lied to, cursed at or spoken about behind my back, etc. All of those things have happened to me in the past 2 and a half days of work. I graduated high school in 2003 and thought that I left it there. Apparently not.
There has to be something more than this. More than dreading every night I have to clock in at work. More than trudging through, unappreciated and unchallenged. Jon Acuff made a point about the desert road, how God takes us the long way around sometimes, how sometimes we have to have a few crappy jobs so that we can appreciate the good one. I'm ready for the good one. Struggling through some crappy relationships to help us become who we need to be when we meet the right one. I think I'm there. The difference between my thoughts and God's is that I'm on my schedule and God is always on his. Sometimes his idea of time and mine do not coincide. Sometimes he takes way too long, and sometimes he shocks the crap out of me with how quickly things happen. Being back here in this environment only shows me more how quickly I want to be out of it. Into anything else. ANYTHING that will allow me to continue living on my own. Everyone tells me to be grateful that I have a job, and yes, I am grateful that I'm employed. However I don't appreciate the way I've been treated lately, and in any other job I've had, this kind of behavior would not be tolerated. I am not posting this on my public blog because people will just chide me for whining, and, I'm trying to use wordpress more for expanding my blog knowledge and this is more private...so sorry to those of you who continue to read here. If you want more insightful blog posts, go to http://rebeccamh.wordpress.com.
EDIT: I have applied for 8 jobs in Omaha, still with First Data but out of the command center. Fingers crossed.
There has to be something more than this. More than dreading every night I have to clock in at work. More than trudging through, unappreciated and unchallenged. Jon Acuff made a point about the desert road, how God takes us the long way around sometimes, how sometimes we have to have a few crappy jobs so that we can appreciate the good one. I'm ready for the good one. Struggling through some crappy relationships to help us become who we need to be when we meet the right one. I think I'm there. The difference between my thoughts and God's is that I'm on my schedule and God is always on his. Sometimes his idea of time and mine do not coincide. Sometimes he takes way too long, and sometimes he shocks the crap out of me with how quickly things happen. Being back here in this environment only shows me more how quickly I want to be out of it. Into anything else. ANYTHING that will allow me to continue living on my own. Everyone tells me to be grateful that I have a job, and yes, I am grateful that I'm employed. However I don't appreciate the way I've been treated lately, and in any other job I've had, this kind of behavior would not be tolerated. I am not posting this on my public blog because people will just chide me for whining, and, I'm trying to use wordpress more for expanding my blog knowledge and this is more private...so sorry to those of you who continue to read here. If you want more insightful blog posts, go to http://rebeccamh.wordpress.com.
EDIT: I have applied for 8 jobs in Omaha, still with First Data but out of the command center. Fingers crossed.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Creativity
When I was young, my parents always encouraged me to use my imagination. To be creative. That little pink crayon and perforated sheet of printer paper my dad brought home from work was my paint and easel. I might’ve gotten carried away with a Sharpie on my brand new wall-papered room, but that’s another story for another time. In any case, those scribbled lines I drew were comparable to Da Vinci himself! At least, that’s how my parents made me feel. They were always encouraging me. What? You’re three but you want to read what your six-year-old brother reads? Go ahead, give it a shot! You wanna try cheerleading? Sure. You wanna go to your friend’s house and sleep over? Of course you can. You wanna cover the driveway with chalk? Have at it kid! Lemonade stand? Here, let me help you make the sign.
What happened to all of that? To being creative, and using the imagination. I’m sure there are a lot of people out there who still do that, and I say kudos to you. We live in a world that puts people into boxes, and label them with permanent maker. Telemarketer. Accountant. Prostitute. Sinner. Drug Dealer. Bank Teller. And we feel stuck in those positions because the world isn’t very good at igniting creativity.
Sure, the world is full of really awesome commercials, (especially apple, why is that?) that shows how creative THOSE people are, but what do they do to ignite others to dig into their own internal creativity? Not much. Its a sad thing too. I used to be creative through music. I played 13 instruments. Now I play the piano, occasionally when I visit my parents. I write still, but it’s shoddy at best. I take pictures too, and I’m decent with that as well but I have a LOT to learn. I’m tied to a computer 12 hours a night, 3, 4, sometimes 5, 6 nights a week. But, I’m always hearing music in my head (August Rush, as of late) and I’m always thinking. Wondering what I could be if I just pushed myself beyond the boundaries I have so carefully built up around me. Its a scary thing, because knocking down those walls will open up the opportunity to be hurt, to be criticized, to be laughed at, to be all of those things I’ve been mortified of since I was the kid everyone picked on at school so many years ago. Things like that leave their mark, no matter how much time has gone by. But slowly, hopefully I’ll be able to remove the wall I’ve built. One brick at a time. Because I believe I, like you, and everyone else, has an immeasurable amount of creativity, and the only thing in the way are the walls we’ve built. Sure, we’ve kept the bad stuff out, but we’ve kept the amazing stuff in too. It’s time to let the amazing stuff out.
What happened to all of that? To being creative, and using the imagination. I’m sure there are a lot of people out there who still do that, and I say kudos to you. We live in a world that puts people into boxes, and label them with permanent maker. Telemarketer. Accountant. Prostitute. Sinner. Drug Dealer. Bank Teller. And we feel stuck in those positions because the world isn’t very good at igniting creativity.
Sure, the world is full of really awesome commercials, (especially apple, why is that?) that shows how creative THOSE people are, but what do they do to ignite others to dig into their own internal creativity? Not much. Its a sad thing too. I used to be creative through music. I played 13 instruments. Now I play the piano, occasionally when I visit my parents. I write still, but it’s shoddy at best. I take pictures too, and I’m decent with that as well but I have a LOT to learn. I’m tied to a computer 12 hours a night, 3, 4, sometimes 5, 6 nights a week. But, I’m always hearing music in my head (August Rush, as of late) and I’m always thinking. Wondering what I could be if I just pushed myself beyond the boundaries I have so carefully built up around me. Its a scary thing, because knocking down those walls will open up the opportunity to be hurt, to be criticized, to be laughed at, to be all of those things I’ve been mortified of since I was the kid everyone picked on at school so many years ago. Things like that leave their mark, no matter how much time has gone by. But slowly, hopefully I’ll be able to remove the wall I’ve built. One brick at a time. Because I believe I, like you, and everyone else, has an immeasurable amount of creativity, and the only thing in the way are the walls we’ve built. Sure, we’ve kept the bad stuff out, but we’ve kept the amazing stuff in too. It’s time to let the amazing stuff out.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Wow
It's been a while hasn't it! well, it's May 16th. Tonight is my last night of work until Friday, and I guess the old gang is going out Wednesday morning after our shift for a green beer for St. Patrick's day. That should actually be a really great time - good people.
Exciting things in the past month:
Moved into my apartment and got 2 months rent free
Worked lots of OT so extra cash is nice
Went to the ER due to the move into the apartment (I'm fine)
A day of prayer from SCL (www.stuffchristianslike.net)
My brother and I are speaking again
Boondock Saints the original in theaters with Dottie
My mom reached her weight loss goal and looks absolutely incredible
Exciting things coming up:
3/25 - 3/29: GETTYSBURG!!! Meet the cast of PRS, hang with some cool people, learn some things and explore the history of the area. So excited.
4/15 - 4/18: State College, PA!! Open House with Father Bob, Ryan, and a lecture from Serg and Josh. I'm spoiling myself with all this travel, but I'm single, without kids. I'm going to live it up.
4/18 Evening: Sing Omaha concert. Dr. Stroope is coming and I'm going to be able to go to the show to see my old friends and Dr. Stroope. VERY exciting stuff.
Sometime after things slow down, I'm going to North Platte to visit an old friend.
6/15: My birthday! The big 2-5.
6/24 - 6/28: Georgia! PISCA event, hang with Jay, Scott and meet up with Tina for a weekend of camping, stories and keeping a look-out for Big Foot. Hehehe
Sometime in October is Scarefest, and I'm absolutely going to that also.
I will of course add more as they fill in but I have a LOT to be looking forward to. I am also working a TON of overtime, but again, the money is good and helping me be able to afford all this travel.
I have a lot to talk about, serious things, sad things, confusing things, but for now, for this moment, I'm going to revel in all the wonderful things going on in my life. I love my apartment, even with half-unpacked boxes and laundry lying around. Being closer to work is going to save me a TON on gas money. I'm still working on my relationship with God, but its getting closer, and those closest to me have acknowledged that even if they don't believe what I do, they love and support me anyway. That's helpful. I'm thinking about going back to school...again. I'm looking for a new place of employment, still. I miss a few of my friends - Bethany, Tiffany, Dottie, my sister-in-law, I never see them enough. I'm always working OT so I never know when I'll have a free day. I should put in more of an effort to put my foot down with my boss. Lately it has felt like I live in the First Data Command Center in Omaha. I have stalled out with losing weight, after 25 lbs. I can't say I've been trying, what with the mono, strep, infections, then packing and moving, it wasn't on my list of priorities. I'd like to get back to it.
Even with all that, my life is pretty amazing.
Exciting things in the past month:
Moved into my apartment and got 2 months rent free
Worked lots of OT so extra cash is nice
Went to the ER due to the move into the apartment (I'm fine)
A day of prayer from SCL (www.stuffchristianslike.net)
My brother and I are speaking again
Boondock Saints the original in theaters with Dottie
My mom reached her weight loss goal and looks absolutely incredible
Exciting things coming up:
3/25 - 3/29: GETTYSBURG!!! Meet the cast of PRS, hang with some cool people, learn some things and explore the history of the area. So excited.
4/15 - 4/18: State College, PA!! Open House with Father Bob, Ryan, and a lecture from Serg and Josh. I'm spoiling myself with all this travel, but I'm single, without kids. I'm going to live it up.
4/18 Evening: Sing Omaha concert. Dr. Stroope is coming and I'm going to be able to go to the show to see my old friends and Dr. Stroope. VERY exciting stuff.
Sometime after things slow down, I'm going to North Platte to visit an old friend.
6/15: My birthday! The big 2-5.
6/24 - 6/28: Georgia! PISCA event, hang with Jay, Scott and meet up with Tina for a weekend of camping, stories and keeping a look-out for Big Foot. Hehehe
Sometime in October is Scarefest, and I'm absolutely going to that also.
I will of course add more as they fill in but I have a LOT to be looking forward to. I am also working a TON of overtime, but again, the money is good and helping me be able to afford all this travel.
I have a lot to talk about, serious things, sad things, confusing things, but for now, for this moment, I'm going to revel in all the wonderful things going on in my life. I love my apartment, even with half-unpacked boxes and laundry lying around. Being closer to work is going to save me a TON on gas money. I'm still working on my relationship with God, but its getting closer, and those closest to me have acknowledged that even if they don't believe what I do, they love and support me anyway. That's helpful. I'm thinking about going back to school...again. I'm looking for a new place of employment, still. I miss a few of my friends - Bethany, Tiffany, Dottie, my sister-in-law, I never see them enough. I'm always working OT so I never know when I'll have a free day. I should put in more of an effort to put my foot down with my boss. Lately it has felt like I live in the First Data Command Center in Omaha. I have stalled out with losing weight, after 25 lbs. I can't say I've been trying, what with the mono, strep, infections, then packing and moving, it wasn't on my list of priorities. I'd like to get back to it.
Even with all that, my life is pretty amazing.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Change
Looks like I'll be living in my own apartment here in about 2 days. I'd say half my stuff is at the apt and half is still at the house. I wish I had a truck. I'll be renting a U-Haul on Thursday and hoping that Jon will help me move things. The big stuff (tv, couches, bed) are the ones that i need the most at the apt, and the hardest to move. GAH! I'm sick of living out of two places!
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